The other thing that has really affected me has been watching the hosts (and by association, hostesses). I can't even convey the size of the world that is the host industry, it sees like a vortex that sucks in the hosts and the girls who go there. I can't make a judgement like "they are bad people" anymore, because the hosts I've met and know have been really nice people, not just players, but people who miss normal human contact and friendship with peope who aren't from the club. I can't reduce it or catagorise it because it is part of a much bigger picture, and if the host clubs weren't there, who knows what would be there in it's place? I'm not defending these types of establishments but I know a lot more than I did, I can't ignore what I have learnt and I can't convey it in words. It's very sad, though.
So, soon I will leave Japan for the third time. Another time that I will feel I am leavig my home for that place I have always lived: Australia.
But I'll be back.



